aimless

life seems to lifeless sumthin n is so boring n it is like nothin make sense at all n things dun really matter much to u but sumtimes it does.. but the truth is u oni get to live yur life once.. so y not make the full use of it.. i mean y regret later abt things u nvr did n wanted to do.. wen we r old we wud have look back at our pass n think.. i wonder.. or wat if.. i mean yes.. althou now we still do wonder n qtion abt wat if.. who doesnt.. seriously people do.. but then least we know we did wat we cud n all we wanted to do has been done.. well i dun mean u muz try drugs rite.. but then sum ppl say we muz try everythin n ther is alwiz a 1st time.. yeah ther is alwiz a 1st time but tat doesnt mean u can kill ppl or rob or rape or watever which in illegal n not rite.. u know wat i mean.. i mean things tat wanted to try like ear rings.. long hair.. race.. er.. illegal i know.. er.. u get the picture i think.. hehe... well serious ppl do say life yur life to the fulless but wat is the fullest? izit being happy or juz content wif yurself or juz being around to know wat is goin on the world.. i mean how do u consider fullest is.. well i think many ppl has different ideas n yes.. many ppl things differently so does tis means fullest in one person is different from another person's fullest in mind.. hhmm.. seems complicated rite.. but guess wat.. life is complicated nothin is easy n nothin come to u the way u wan it.. it juz life in nvr meant to be easy or nice in any way but it is if u think abt it... u do enjoy yurself at time but then somehow it seems rather unfair too.. hmm.. think i am talkin a bunch of bullshit here.. haha.. i guess i am... i really know y.. there r things u keep wonderin n thinkin abt but no matter wat u do or dun do it doesnt really work.. it is like it wun make a different at all if u get wat i mean.. er.. i dun think u do.. cos i dun think i am makin any sense at all.. hmm.. i think i am gettin from bad to worst.. haha.. nothin i am sayin seems to make sense but it really does it u get it.. hmm.. well in a way it does.. nevermind abt it then.. today is the 4.. 4 day into the new year.. but i dun see my luck changin at all.. i serious dunno wat the fuck is happenin to me.. i think i was curse u know.. mabbe i am... sigh.. n there r things no matter how u dun wanna think abt it u still do.. sigh.. hmm.. it sound like i am full wif problems.. but i dun really think so.. i mean which person out the doesnt really have a problem.. even the rich do.. but of cos it wun be money related.. haha.. sigh.. i think there r time u juz wanna sit alone sumwer n be wif yurself n try to figure out wat is wat actually n were r we suppose to be or suppose to be doin.. it juz feels tat way but then it doesnt help at all.. haha.. anyway i am lazy to type adi.. so i wud be signin out abt it.. till we meet again.. haha.. damn gay man... haha