time and tide waits for no man

by sayin this, i guess mostly knows what this mean.. just as i watch my day passes by i goin home aimless thinking what have a been doing lately.. i seems like or have i say that i feel like of useless.. i cant help feeling this and sometimes do add to this.. sometimes after years of working and doin the same thing u do feel like this really sucks and hope for something more.. and sometimes u feel why am i doing this.. and sometimes u feel useless like u cant move on.. haha.. i guess it get complicated as each of us live a different life style and some do get comfy with where they are now.. while some are scared to move on thinking it maybe worst, some wants to move on but cant get the chance to, and some just dun really care any more.. i wonder where do in fit in this.. i dun really know..

thursday moving on to friday

well well as in am sitting here.. nothing much to do in the office actually which my boss is not around so i though might as well write some crap here.. basically.. sometimes u will feel that day by day passes by u just like that and suddenly is it a whole year gone by.. every monday we go to work hoping that friday wud just arrived soon so that it wud be the weekend and we can enjoy.. then after some time u will look back and think wat the fuck have i been doing or done.. well i do ask myself this question sometimes.. and actually i cant really answer it.. it is like we just pass our days like that.. sure most of plan for the future... but then what does all these mean.. for me.. a plan is always a plan and there will be back up plans or whatever plan you wanted.. but in the end of the day.. i do ask myself am i really satisfied with where i am and where i want to go.. is there a purpose for me to do the things i do? there is a lot of questions stuck in our mind but is there really a good answer out there? sure we want to move to a better job, high paying job, have a good life, our children have good life, our parents can enjoy their life, seriously for me i really dont know sometimes.. but as time pass and hours turn to days and weeks i hope i do find the answer for the things i ask myself.. maybe some how u know that u werent meant to be great in life but at least there sud be a site set in your mind which some how u hope to achieve.. as for me now.. i will just wait for time to pass and time for me to move on.. cheers..

is patience really virtue

dun get me worry in some sense patience is really virtue.. i am talking about in the working world.. as in if u wait and wait to get a certain position in a company does it really pay off.. or in the sense of getting a good job offer.. i do believe sometimes it happens that u really do get it but how often does it happen.. it always is my fren or fren's fren but u never hear about those close to u.. how come.. haha.. curious rite.. me also.. sigh..

facing the facts

As we get older thru the years and days, the more commitments we have, well as in the more want or need.. such as car or house or getting married... well i guess u can say those are just basic things we need to have as part of our live... and we see people around use having things that are nice and well our taste of things usually will also increase as we will want the better things in life.. cos i guess deep down inside us we are just jealous of the things people have.. but some knowing this cant really have things we want.. i guess you are not wondering what am i really tryin to get at.. i dunno what really am i tryin to say but just wanna point out that does some people really have the luck to get things always on thier side or some dont.. i think so people do work hard but in the end of the day we cant getting anywer at all well some just get it easy.. is just talking cock during interview works? i mean i can see people getting palaces but u know they arent any better than you are.. so does luck really play a part of our lives? another thing about this topic is that i have been asking around.. why some can really have to much money to spare while some cant.. i know i cant save shit.. what comes in just go out like that.. so where do they or how to they do it... i guess what they say is true also.. if u save even 10 bucks it is 10 bucks saved... hmm this is getting nowhere.. ending now..

half the year

sometimes it is weird how time pass by so fast but yet when you want it to pass by faster at time it doesnt.. time and tide waits for no man... money cant buy time.. all these is we hear when we waste time or just let if slip by us.. but most important is that you are were you are now but yet u feel nothing much has been done or maybe you just feel like nothing much has change, it all still the same to you.. did u expect to here 5 years ago.. or the question most people do as in interview is that were do you see yourself in 5 years time.. fucking hell of cos better than now.. but what is better to you? how is it an improvement for you? is money the factor or is position the factor? or the amount of awards u receive? or the number of time you time appears in the papers ? how can we trully said i have achieved something in life.. how do you value these things? i dont know either.. just that when you see people around you far ahead you do wonder these things.. you wud think where do we go from here? hmm.. i dun think things are making sense.. hehe... its ok.. just hope you dont have this empty, bored, frus and confused feeling.. hehe.. anyways.. i am lazy to go on

things u notice

i bet everybody notice it is better and nicer when u r overseas.. i mean u always notice the good side of things then compare back here.. yikess... sigh... you really feel depress.. and keep asking why why why.. hehe.. really i am sure many do that.. and well deep down i guess you wish you were staying in those countries.. well i sure did.. but then do sit and think about the down side of things.. i am sure everything has it ups and downs.. i am not really sure what the down side is but some how and some way you sure will find it out.. anyways what i am saying is actually the more you see the world, the more you notice, the more u like it over there.. you get more info on life there.. and how it works.. and then when you back to your country.. wow.. totally different such an eye opener... sigh.. nothing... just speaking some i notice.. and feeling lazy hehe... on the ending note.. wooohooo BARCELONA!!

marching to the end

well it is almost reaching the end of the month and i can say that june will be here soon and half a year just pass by me just like tat.. but then.. i aint any different.. aint any richer but very much poorer.. which leads me to a point.. do u think everybody is meant to do great things out there, great as in things they think that are great.. hmm.. not really getting my point here.. ok.. well do u think that some people werent meant to do big things, earn big bucks and so forth.. of cos i am sure you must be thinking that if everything does well then who will be there to do the dirty work.. truth.. so i guess not everybody can reach great heights.. i really dunno.. cos sometimes there is this feeling in your heart or mind that, you werent meant for these thing.. good things in life come to those who well.. have the luck and is choosen.. sure everybody wish to be some where in 10 years but getting there in 10 years or not is it possible.. really.. sure u hear stories about those who can.... but why dont you hear stories about those who fail.. they too tried to but they cant.. so does it mean that if u or not suppose to then you wont have it or wat.. oh yes... i am sure we all hear the normal bullshit about work hard.. blah blah blah this and that.. but come on.. dont kid us around.. not always working hard helps.. really.. i dont think it is like the olden days.. the harder u work the better it is... i think the harder u polish the faster u go up.. hahaha.. seriously.. and never step on your boss's tail!! anyways.. as i was saying so will we all be some where in 10 years or just fade among the rest.. i really dunno... i am sure i will fade among the rest.. haha.. but the rate things are going.. but then come to think of it.. not everybody wants a rich life.. not everybody wants to be some one, some people want the peaceful life, they want things to be just enough and a bit more... i guess different people have different ideas of how they want things to be but for sure they wan improvement in life.. who doesnt.. the question now is that how many can have those improvement in life and not to worry about many thing later in life.. that is what is meant of great things in life.. peace of mind.. just pass each day not worrying about tomorrow... how nice would that be.. for me i really dun have much request.. but sigh...

the march is here

well well.. look at how things are nowadays.. i think it wun get any better soon.. for now at least.. but hopefully by then end of this year it will get better.. i dunno.. sigh.. things for me seems to be bad.. i think i keep hoping for something which is just depends on luck.. but then if not.. how?? i cant jump up straight away.. or is there a way to just up way up there.. sigh.. i dunno.. i guess this doesnt make any sense just wanna crap out anyway.. ciao

tick tok tick ding ding ding! happy new year!

haha... just wanna come up with something weird.. nah it didnt work.. so anyways it is a new year suppose to be a new beginning and wer resolutions comes in but then the part of the new beginning doesnt actually work.. cos from the way I see it things are still the way it is.. just that is a just a new year wer u hope things wud get better and doesnt fuck up like the last year.. if you are still in debt then u are still in debt.. if you still a mindless empolyee then you still are.. but only you hope it get better.. wer meaning that u want to see improvement in life, well of cos.. who doesnt.. my point being that is it wer you have a different mind set for things this year.. look back at what had gone wrong, dont do it again.. change for the better, look at things differently.. look ahead.. that is what i think anyways.. if you dont agree then I guess too bad.. there is never wrong but how you look at it.. hahah.. and yeah.. resolutions are good too.. i think but for me, it never happens so hmm... i wanna try to make it happen this year i hope.. haha.. yup.. that is all for not.. cant think so much for now... so HAPPY NEW YEAR!