chritsmas times...

it seems to be more and more boring as years pass by and the way u celebrate things has become so dull and is not longer exciting or maybe it is rather that some people are getting old well maybe still young in heart.. haha.. i wouldnt know so much i guess.. but then it seems so dully and plain this year around.. maybe i guess i was never that happening at all.. well maybe.. but then there comes new year where a new beginning will begin and things may change if u wan it to and it may not depending i guess.. would i want some changes.. i guess so.. changes are good.. rite?? i hope so.. dont u alwiz hear that people will change wen life goes on and it may be for the better or for the worst.. i really dont know.. if u do get better, how is it consider better? better pay? better job? better gf? better house? better attitude? or wat? u tell me? i really dont know.. better towards people? sigh.. things in life is so complicated rite.. i guess so.. nah... juz tryin to crap some rubbish out.. there is lots of things i wonder i guess.. but i think some things can be explain or better let it.. then we wake up the next day and juz let it be and on wif life.. there goes another day.. may a better tomorrow come.. hehe...

the time of the new beginning... i mean new year!

yes yes yes.. i mean the new year is coming around the corner and of cos christmas!! hehe.. hope i will get a present.. not some juz A present.. means i am not greedy u see.. and yes yes i know.. i havent touch this shit for a damn long time.. haha.. months.. well not yet a year so it is a good sign.. actually juz suddenly felt like writing sumthin so juz did.. not to say anybody esle wud read this.. rite.. of cos rite..
actually juz wonderin how long cud sumbody say in the same company doin the same job and the same old shit everyday! isnt it boring! isnt it time for a change! wudnt u dun have the mood or motivation another for improvement? i serious dun know.. i havent work for 2 years also still find the so dead lifeless and no point doin so.. juz that i have too cos i dun i dun get paid hence.. no money to use.. so i guess basicly ppl workin and get stuck in the job cos they dun have any choice!! but then i think ppl wud wan to leave also rite.. i AM FOR SURE goin to leave.. juz that i wonder why also still no damn fuckin interview.. sigh.. i am that bad or juz the market sux or is there any other reason.. i really hope there is.. sigh... still hopefull i guess cos i dun have a choice either rite.. sigh... y wasnt i born in the silver spoon.. it would be better then.. haha.. less worries..
i guess everythin else is still find for me.. although i need to get sum saving goin before i fuckin spend everythin i earn! or mabbe cos the money juz aint enuff.. hahaha.. excuses excuses... i really dont know but it is gettin quite late so i better get sum sleep if not.. u know there rest.. till i write again..

new new new...

sigh... i am suppose to be sleepin rite now but i juz cant or dunno wat the fuck is wrong anyways.. aint life a bitch.. i can be consider workin for 1 year adi.. but yet.. i dunno it is juz like not tat long n not tat short... sum how i have lost the mood for workin or even so the spirit of workin for tat company.. i guess it started few months back.. i juz dunno.. aint life a bitch! isnt tat true.. and i have been throught lots of things even thought most of it isnt mine.. like for instant episode 1.. hahaha.. now episode 2 well if u r thinkin wat the hell is episode 1 or 2 well i know wat it is tat is enuff for me.. and now even better sumwan get whack. and i dun mean whack by the term as in kill but really whack as in hit! yeah... fuckin long story aslo and it aint mine to tell so y bother.. juz bored wif things goin around me.. it is like nothin much nice or good is happening juz bad and sad news oni.. kind of fuck aint it.. yeah.. am i still findin for a new job.. yeah! of cos i fuckin hate the job i am in now although casual dressin to workin is nice but still aint fuckin gettin paid enuff! yeah i know money is important okay or not y do u think we are all workin for anyway? sigh.. fuckin hell dunno.. like so much on my mine but i juz dunno.. and dunno sumhow i got a chick yeah.. can be consider a chick although none of my frens know abt it.. but still i think she is my chick.. sigh.. cant tell ppl also for now.. wow.. fuckin great aint it.. see see.. ther is so much i feel like doin but ther is so lil i can do.. serious i dunno adi.. juz let the days so pass wait for weekend.. enjoy a bit n then work.. for fucks.. sigh.. is ther sumthin more i sud do or need to know.. confused aint i.. nah i dun think so anyways.. juz occupied oni my mind wif things i guess.. i hope so.. well at least i aint in depression or watever deep shit ther is to be.. rite?!?! but really sumtime u think gal really r evil! seriously a lot of shit happen cos of gals.. not to say i am sexist or wat but juz gal can cos the world to go war n ppl dun even know y they r fightin for also.. well not to say gals r bad juz tat powerfull in sum sense.. hmm wondering wat am i gettin at? nah it is okie.. as long as i know wat i am gettin it i think it is alrite.. hehe.. and i am not sayin gals r bad okie.. cos i have a chick.. haha i cant rite.. juz tat.. well i will keep quiet for now.. sigh.. ther goes today.. n tomorrow is here already.. yeah am i know i aint been writin for long but then i juz write today for fucks oni... dun really need to pay attention actually.. juz tryin to get things out.. so sorry if i offended anywan who reads tis.......