stepping on..

hmm.. do u realise something as we go along with our everyday life.. we get to know more, we experience more, we learn more, we see more and many more.. it is how you see things as they are and how do u take as it goes.. it may be hard but heck we have to.. what choice do we have anyways.. not to say we were born rich and spoil so go along as it goes try to make the best of it when it comes.. complaining wunt get u nowhere, angry wunt get u heard.. it is just sometimes the way things are.. and you of cos must try every way to make it work for u.. seriously sometimes you see why are some people so well off and doing so well and what has they got that u dont have.. i seriously dont know.. but i guess they had the change and the will to prove and try to make things right from them.. if you do by all means.. hahah.. a bit on the thinking side today.. nothing much just happy that i am finally able to move on and get another better offer... yippie horray.. but there are things that is still wonder of cos people wonder if not.. why do people always ask where do you see yourself few years down the road.. how the heck should i know.. if only i knew then wunt things be very different now.. i mean we do plans things but whether it work out or not.. who knows.. of cos people say it is up to u whether you want to make it happen or not.. but if it doesnt?!??!! then how.. shit happens, mess happens.. nothing is for certain.. who wunt want the best i mean everybody wants the best.. but not everybody gets the best.. u know what i mean.. yeah.. life goes on.. take it as it comes..

older yet still the same..

i am older yet it still feels the same... nothing has change or nothing feels different.. it has been a boring few months... go to work wait for time to pass then wait till 6 for work to finish and go back home and then everyday is the same.. from monday we wait till friday or maybe saturday for the weekend yet it passes by so damn fast... sigh.. do u notice that your frens always get better than u and u still stuck at where u are.. it is just weird i tell u.. i does tell u something that u better do something with your life before u are far far away behind.. hehe.. or mabbe u it says u are a bit useless.. haha... well mabbe my time hasnt come or mabbe nobody believes in this crap.. i truly dunno what to believe.. but always hoping for the best to come and more to come..
anyways enough about this crap.. i feel like everything is passing by so fast and u dun really know what is going on sometimes.. i feel like there is so much to do yet like there is nothing to do.. it just feels funny i tell u.. or mabbe i am just a weird person... hehe.. oh ya.. birthdays are like any other days... it pass by just like that and u end up doing nothing at all.. sigh... well i dun really mind but i some people do feel it is important, well i guess so as it is the day were u are getting older and should be more mature and to see things more clearly.. well it is suppose to be that day.. so by that i end it for now..

at some point

i think at some point of something like that.. u realize that things are not as simple as it seems and that so many things are just liars behind liars.. and you are wondering what am i crapping about.. nothing much really just something happen around my work place and those rumours that starts to surface but you wouldnt know what is real and what is not.. it seems to me that being up there isnt as easy as it seems... and do wish to be up there.. but just how.. hmm.. nevermind.. i also dun understand so why bother.. sigh.. it is things you get to know and things u start to think why we small potatoes are around for.. maybe it is for them to play around with or maybe they need us in order to keep it going.. and other things u heard from other frens and people around seems to keep pulling yourself down.. sigh.. i dont think any of you will understand what am i trying to say.. well i dun really also cos maybe i am quite sleepy and just feel like writing some crap out here.. lets just say i have gotten to know things which are happening quite true cos maybe it is not avoidable or not want to be avoid.. hehe.. of cos why the heck show avoid.. benefits are good and u will know that you can never be to careful as anybody near u will stab you in the back.. haha.. few lesson u learn in the process of working and growing up..
the rest seems alrite for now i think so.. nothing much i can complain as i know if i dont move on.. i cant keep myself ahead.. so.. fingers crossed and hoping for a better outcome...

may i more on..

nothin much have been happening lately but sumthin i was sure happy about is that Milan kick Man Utd out of Champions league!! YES! at last the man utd fans can be so arrogant.. they were out class by Milan.. totally shut down.. no chance at all... wow.. milan is really really that good.. and of cos I dun mind Liverpool goin to the final rather than Chelsea.. but I do hope Liverpool lose.. hehe.. well I know it sounds bad but Milan was really great yesterday I dun think Man utd can complain.. look at how they play man.. nice tackle nice passing.. but yes they are really old.. haha.. like the chinese saying older the ginger, the spicer the ginger.. haha.. anyways there it is all about footie..
hmm... there was this funny incident that happen.. i was out with my chick.. then while we were walking when I saw this gal who was once on the gal I admire.. haha it is weird that my chick knows her.. then they just chatted a while and my chick intro her to me.. how weird and funny is that.. i seriously find it funny.. well rite now I am thinking about my future.. seriously i really think it is about time for me to look ahead rather than just bumming around and let the days go by while doing nothing at all.. but then wen and how do i start.. Now that is the question... so i guess i am stuck here again.. sigh..

thinks u ponder about..

nothing much... just some comments about upper management that i heard which quite dun make sense to me or mabbe it is not gettin thru to me.. i really dunno i guess it is suppose to hint something to me because it was told me to.. hmm.. i guess there is more to learn then wat meets the eye.. but then i guess sometimes u really feel like you know a lot it is like the feelin you get yourself asking why the fuck cant he think like tat.. haha.. mabbe just sometimes or rarely.. but then i still have a long long way to go.. so i guess i should know more about things then just those i things i work on.. i wonder if you do really get what i mean... nothin much.. just things i keep pondering about often.. seriously i dunno why also.. i just feel do down and hardly anymore heart left in the my work anyways... i just feel like i have to go to work cos i need to not because i really have the heart.. dun feelin or whatsoever.. so unmotivated .. i wanna start somethin new.. i new challenges in life... in work.. i wanna know more.. i wan more.. i learn so much to be stuck just like that.. i am still young.. there so much more out there for me to know and see.. i want than just this.. i really want.. but the question now.. IS CAN I?? sigh...

watever will be will be

i dunno or really just give up sumtimes.. it is that hard or it is juz me.. sigh.. my luck havent been good since i came here.. or it is this place.. i really dunno... but it feel nice n homely.. so what can it be.. how now brown cow.. how can things be so bad yet so nice yet i fuckin dunno.. haha... truthly i wanna be happy or watsoever but just that i dunno how things are and it doesnt seem good i guess.. i need to get goin to be sumwer or sumone or .. or wat esle.. fucks... sigh... that is why... i just really dunno.. i really dunno.. n guess.. just let it be then....................

march on...

hello it is me again.. yes i know it has been quite sometime from my laz post.. hehe.. u know me.. being lazy n all.. anyways juz nothin much to say today.. juz quite bored with things... lucky i have my series to help waste my time if not.. i also wunt know how.. juz yesterday only one of my gf's fren got serious drunk and wasted which reminds me of my older days... those days when everythin was still young n naive.. u cud say i will be drunk most of the time wen i am out drinkin wif my frens.. for one it is hell a lot cheaper drinking there so i think that is the reason why... and because u know my frens.. all are drunkard fucks.. hahaa.. nah not complaining but it is a good thing... juz the good old days.. how nice it was.. better than were i am now..
work hasnt been great but still what choice is there.. can some juz quit when not having another better or same offer.. well i am juz scared not be jobless and moneyless.. so i guess there is nothing much to say... but juz to tell u something.. i realise that no matter how well or watever u try to do.. if u dun know how to suck up to yur boss.. it doesnt matter nothing does.. it is how well u sucked up and fuckin polish his shoes.. that is how u are goin up.. dont u ever forget that... somehow i thought things would be different but then i was wrong.. everythin sounds peachy when they want u to work for them.. then only u know u have enter hell! hahah... i guess some of us know that by now.. so lets talk about some more exciting...
wait.. is there anythin more exciting to life? for mine at least.. well today will be last day of chinese new year.. hehe.. means gambling have to stop from today.. of at least it suppose to.. it has been quite a slow one this year.. really it feels like nothin at all just only i had those nice nice holie.. nice food.. yummy.. new year is alwiz about food and ang pau.. thank god i am not married if not there goes those ang pau.. hehe... well.. i guess there is nothing much for me to tell about now.. till i come back...