at some point

i think at some point of something like that.. u realize that things are not as simple as it seems and that so many things are just liars behind liars.. and you are wondering what am i crapping about.. nothing much really just something happen around my work place and those rumours that starts to surface but you wouldnt know what is real and what is not.. it seems to me that being up there isnt as easy as it seems... and do wish to be up there.. but just how.. hmm.. nevermind.. i also dun understand so why bother.. sigh.. it is things you get to know and things u start to think why we small potatoes are around for.. maybe it is for them to play around with or maybe they need us in order to keep it going.. and other things u heard from other frens and people around seems to keep pulling yourself down.. sigh.. i dont think any of you will understand what am i trying to say.. well i dun really also cos maybe i am quite sleepy and just feel like writing some crap out here.. lets just say i have gotten to know things which are happening quite true cos maybe it is not avoidable or not want to be avoid.. hehe.. of cos why the heck show avoid.. benefits are good and u will know that you can never be to careful as anybody near u will stab you in the back.. haha.. few lesson u learn in the process of working and growing up..
the rest seems alrite for now i think so.. nothing much i can complain as i know if i dont move on.. i cant keep myself ahead.. so.. fingers crossed and hoping for a better outcome...