thinks u ponder about..

nothing much... just some comments about upper management that i heard which quite dun make sense to me or mabbe it is not gettin thru to me.. i really dunno i guess it is suppose to hint something to me because it was told me to.. hmm.. i guess there is more to learn then wat meets the eye.. but then i guess sometimes u really feel like you know a lot it is like the feelin you get yourself asking why the fuck cant he think like tat.. haha.. mabbe just sometimes or rarely.. but then i still have a long long way to go.. so i guess i should know more about things then just those i things i work on.. i wonder if you do really get what i mean... nothin much.. just things i keep pondering about often.. seriously i dunno why also.. i just feel do down and hardly anymore heart left in the my work anyways... i just feel like i have to go to work cos i need to not because i really have the heart.. dun feelin or whatsoever.. so unmotivated .. i wanna start somethin new.. i new challenges in life... in work.. i wanna know more.. i wan more.. i learn so much to be stuck just like that.. i am still young.. there so much more out there for me to know and see.. i want than just this.. i really want.. but the question now.. IS CAN I?? sigh...