steppin up in life

do you ever feel like you are behind, as in your frens and peers are moving so much faster yet you are still stuck at your current state... worst of all.. you know you are in so much deep shit and trying to figure a way out of this.. sigh.. i tend to think that being human we are jealous of things people get and good things coming their way wishing how come it couldnt be me.. some things are just human nature... but when you look back maybe some of this is your own doing and maybe some times it means you were not meant to make it big in life.. as a i said before i guess not everything was meant to be great or least try to be somewhere but fail.. but in the end you yourself must also put some work and initiative in it.. failing is painful but the beauty of falling is that you get up strong maybe beaten but strong and better while trying not to fall back down again in the same whole... but how come i tend to still fall back in the same hole, maybe i am always hoping to get something i could never get back.. sigh.. hope and dreams is what keeps us going on.. and lastly.. you are better than this.. dont fuck up your life.. noted to self also.. and there is saying to remind ourselves.. we can lose everything but believe in yourself you must never lose.. ending note.. damn barca.. sigh.. arsenal lost yet again.. messi is too damn good..