football...

i just wanna write something about football.. no surprise to anyone that the club i support is ARSENAL yet i sud be supporting my own local scene.. but then this is beside the point.. anyways.. it has been 5 seasons and still trophyless.. and i guess as a fan you can say it is quite disappointing every year hoping to do well but at then end.. and today we really suck cos we cant even play good football.. even if we lost we always is remember as the team playing the most entertaining football.. but yet.. today wasnt the case.. we didnt lost to barca but we didnt bounce back up.. and if we did.. we could have been fighting for the title not just being happy with 3rd placing.. i am bored with the excuses sometimes... because we had injury.. come on... u know and i know that injury do happen.. it just happen to be that our team have more.. and we cant cope.. and we lack of good player and quality defenders and goal keeper.. i mean we did this to ourselves, well the manager did.. i dont blame him but it is the fact that when we had 3 old defenders.. we needed a young defender.. which did not happen.. and then we say oh.. cos of our injury we cant challenge.. i think we had to go pass this and think of something rather than season after season using this same excuse.. we the fan is not please with this.. and we have to admit that teams do get injuries so we have to live with this face.. we need to solve this fact.. and not blame it around.. and one more thing which i dun really get it is that.. why do we put so much on the tottenham rivalry.. for me i really fucking hate man utd.. seriously how many times have they kill our dreams and spoil so many record for us.. and yet we put the rivalry between tottenham which we always beat so far more important.. we cant even look at the bigger picture.. sigh.. yes winning tottenham is important but winning man utd and chelsea is as important.. or not how are we goin to challenge for the title.. all i can say for this season is just SIGH.. i give up.. fan may give many reason but we have to face the fact.. hopefully next season would be a better one and we get some good signing..

houses

just during the weekend i was with my frens out checking out the houses and condo around pj area.. and bloody fuckin hell the condo prices are bloody expensive.. for 300k for a 1200 condo.. wow.. i mean unless you are earing around 5k or so then you can afford such a place but if not.. how can you.. and of cos if bought you and your partner is sharing then sure.. affordable but the prices nowadays.. it is not even landed property... and yet so many people around here can buy such high prices making u think that money is easily earn in kl.. and u start to think how come it is so easy for some people yet u still see many people struggling to make end day meal.. sigh.. the facts of life.. sad but true.. i just dont understand is that these house or condo is so expensive yet people are grabbing it like it is on sale.. i really dun get it sometimes.. anyway but i guess people do need a place of their own no matter how much it cost.. i am just surprise that is all.. nothing much to complain just curious and pondering.. well it is what it is.. till then

steppin up in life

do you ever feel like you are behind, as in your frens and peers are moving so much faster yet you are still stuck at your current state... worst of all.. you know you are in so much deep shit and trying to figure a way out of this.. sigh.. i tend to think that being human we are jealous of things people get and good things coming their way wishing how come it couldnt be me.. some things are just human nature... but when you look back maybe some of this is your own doing and maybe some times it means you were not meant to make it big in life.. as a i said before i guess not everything was meant to be great or least try to be somewhere but fail.. but in the end you yourself must also put some work and initiative in it.. failing is painful but the beauty of falling is that you get up strong maybe beaten but strong and better while trying not to fall back down again in the same whole... but how come i tend to still fall back in the same hole, maybe i am always hoping to get something i could never get back.. sigh.. hope and dreams is what keeps us going on.. and lastly.. you are better than this.. dont fuck up your life.. noted to self also.. and there is saying to remind ourselves.. we can lose everything but believe in yourself you must never lose.. ending note.. damn barca.. sigh.. arsenal lost yet again.. messi is too damn good..

lonely day..

in a relationship do wonder what is important? is trust and honesty or giving in to each other, or it all boils down to money, or maybe the little things we should remember or dont remember. so what keeps a healthy relationship? i do believe couples do quarrel either because of the little things or things we dont remember or things we did or shouldnt do, the reason are wide.. but the question is that does these things have to do with money or just the day to day basic.. from i believe i am not too good with all these i guess but then i do tend to do what is possible for me, so in the end you do wonder.. why things happen and why things dont happen, is a simple sorry enough or is there more we need to do? can things be solve easily or what.. i mean these are things i cant explain.. so i shall just let it be.. or try to fix it... hmm...

when to stop

when do you start to see things differently? How do you admit that you fucked up? Starting to look at the bigger picture is good, you dont see things from your side but from others also.. Anyway i just wana say, it is time for me to change.. For the better, if you know that way always pull you down then stop it.. But why keep tryin it, i guess there was a hope thinking it wud work but there is a limit rite.. So there stop hoping for that way.. Grow up now and things will change for the better..

debt and credit

does it make you wonder how many around you actually owe credit card money.. you would like to believe most of us dont as the interest is quite high if u dont pay up.. but in reality, many of us does.. it is not a good habit but then sometimes we cant help it.. it does prove a point also.. actually we dont really have the spending power like we are suppose to.. or do just want the better things in life.. and now with the 50 buck impose on each credit card you have.. meaning most of the people wont generally cut the cards they dont need.. but in fact.. would we.. it is like dammit, i dont have enough cash till the end of the month... so logically we would just swipe the card and use it first thinking we would pay up when it is time.. but as time goes by the amount we pay increase as the usage increase.. then tada.. we are in debt.. i have to admit this.. i use to pay in time and there wasnt any carry forward amount to be paid the following month.. but things got out a hand once or twice.. now... ermm... this is what happen.. but i do feel some do take personal loan to cover the debt in credit card or balance transfer.. i am just thinking.. how or when can we only settle all these debts.. there is a saying once u reach the working world.. u work all your life just to pay off debts.. you would be lucky if u have some savings.. but then it means we are just slave in the system.. i do sometimes envy those you see dont have money worries or those u see in the middle of working time can go around and many around us u think what do they do for a living.. while some work so damn fucking hard, those just enjoy life.. yes i know nothing is easy but then sometimes it makes you wonder it is really worth it.. sigh.. for me.. i do hope to settle my debts ASAP well hopefully before i get older this year.. and have a bit of saving for.. ahem.. my future investment i shall name is as.. hehe... so i do hope most of you dont fall in the credit card trap like i did and many others..

with new year come new beginning.. i hope

hmmm.. everytime when it is new year... we would be happy.. but then come the resolution part.. and things u hope to improve yourself and the usual crap.. yes of cos everybody will try to follow but i can guess not many can do it.. for me the new year is a new hope and beginning for a better year and not to fucked it up.. well as my year ending of 2009 was not a good one.. well it was quite a bad one and so was 2008.. it always happens the same for me that is.. the ending always bad... i dunno why.. sigh.. well the beginning of 2010 isnt so good as i already started with debts.. many many many debts.. sigh.. i work of cos i need to jump ahead man.. this is taking me no where.. but most important i would like be financially stable for this whole year! preparing for well i can say something important that need money.. so for me i just hope everybody would have a better 2010 than 2009 cos it doesnt matter what happen in 2009 as u learn from mistake that is why people make mistake .. but dont be an idiot of keep repeating these mistake.. as for me .. would hope to the better year ahead and hope something good will come out of it.. cheers... to a great year ahead.. *cross my fingers*

time and tide waits for no man

by sayin this, i guess mostly knows what this mean.. just as i watch my day passes by i goin home aimless thinking what have a been doing lately.. i seems like or have i say that i feel like of useless.. i cant help feeling this and sometimes do add to this.. sometimes after years of working and doin the same thing u do feel like this really sucks and hope for something more.. and sometimes u feel why am i doing this.. and sometimes u feel useless like u cant move on.. haha.. i guess it get complicated as each of us live a different life style and some do get comfy with where they are now.. while some are scared to move on thinking it maybe worst, some wants to move on but cant get the chance to, and some just dun really care any more.. i wonder where do in fit in this.. i dun really know..

thursday moving on to friday

well well as in am sitting here.. nothing much to do in the office actually which my boss is not around so i though might as well write some crap here.. basically.. sometimes u will feel that day by day passes by u just like that and suddenly is it a whole year gone by.. every monday we go to work hoping that friday wud just arrived soon so that it wud be the weekend and we can enjoy.. then after some time u will look back and think wat the fuck have i been doing or done.. well i do ask myself this question sometimes.. and actually i cant really answer it.. it is like we just pass our days like that.. sure most of plan for the future... but then what does all these mean.. for me.. a plan is always a plan and there will be back up plans or whatever plan you wanted.. but in the end of the day.. i do ask myself am i really satisfied with where i am and where i want to go.. is there a purpose for me to do the things i do? there is a lot of questions stuck in our mind but is there really a good answer out there? sure we want to move to a better job, high paying job, have a good life, our children have good life, our parents can enjoy their life, seriously for me i really dont know sometimes.. but as time pass and hours turn to days and weeks i hope i do find the answer for the things i ask myself.. maybe some how u know that u werent meant to be great in life but at least there sud be a site set in your mind which some how u hope to achieve.. as for me now.. i will just wait for time to pass and time for me to move on.. cheers..

is patience really virtue

dun get me worry in some sense patience is really virtue.. i am talking about in the working world.. as in if u wait and wait to get a certain position in a company does it really pay off.. or in the sense of getting a good job offer.. i do believe sometimes it happens that u really do get it but how often does it happen.. it always is my fren or fren's fren but u never hear about those close to u.. how come.. haha.. curious rite.. me also.. sigh..

facing the facts

As we get older thru the years and days, the more commitments we have, well as in the more want or need.. such as car or house or getting married... well i guess u can say those are just basic things we need to have as part of our live... and we see people around use having things that are nice and well our taste of things usually will also increase as we will want the better things in life.. cos i guess deep down inside us we are just jealous of the things people have.. but some knowing this cant really have things we want.. i guess you are not wondering what am i really tryin to get at.. i dunno what really am i tryin to say but just wanna point out that does some people really have the luck to get things always on thier side or some dont.. i think so people do work hard but in the end of the day we cant getting anywer at all well some just get it easy.. is just talking cock during interview works? i mean i can see people getting palaces but u know they arent any better than you are.. so does luck really play a part of our lives? another thing about this topic is that i have been asking around.. why some can really have to much money to spare while some cant.. i know i cant save shit.. what comes in just go out like that.. so where do they or how to they do it... i guess what they say is true also.. if u save even 10 bucks it is 10 bucks saved... hmm this is getting nowhere.. ending now..

half the year

sometimes it is weird how time pass by so fast but yet when you want it to pass by faster at time it doesnt.. time and tide waits for no man... money cant buy time.. all these is we hear when we waste time or just let if slip by us.. but most important is that you are were you are now but yet u feel nothing much has been done or maybe you just feel like nothing much has change, it all still the same to you.. did u expect to here 5 years ago.. or the question most people do as in interview is that were do you see yourself in 5 years time.. fucking hell of cos better than now.. but what is better to you? how is it an improvement for you? is money the factor or is position the factor? or the amount of awards u receive? or the number of time you time appears in the papers ? how can we trully said i have achieved something in life.. how do you value these things? i dont know either.. just that when you see people around you far ahead you do wonder these things.. you wud think where do we go from here? hmm.. i dun think things are making sense.. hehe... its ok.. just hope you dont have this empty, bored, frus and confused feeling.. hehe.. anyways.. i am lazy to go on

things u notice

i bet everybody notice it is better and nicer when u r overseas.. i mean u always notice the good side of things then compare back here.. yikess... sigh... you really feel depress.. and keep asking why why why.. hehe.. really i am sure many do that.. and well deep down i guess you wish you were staying in those countries.. well i sure did.. but then do sit and think about the down side of things.. i am sure everything has it ups and downs.. i am not really sure what the down side is but some how and some way you sure will find it out.. anyways what i am saying is actually the more you see the world, the more you notice, the more u like it over there.. you get more info on life there.. and how it works.. and then when you back to your country.. wow.. totally different such an eye opener... sigh.. nothing... just speaking some i notice.. and feeling lazy hehe... on the ending note.. wooohooo BARCELONA!!

marching to the end

well it is almost reaching the end of the month and i can say that june will be here soon and half a year just pass by me just like tat.. but then.. i aint any different.. aint any richer but very much poorer.. which leads me to a point.. do u think everybody is meant to do great things out there, great as in things they think that are great.. hmm.. not really getting my point here.. ok.. well do u think that some people werent meant to do big things, earn big bucks and so forth.. of cos i am sure you must be thinking that if everything does well then who will be there to do the dirty work.. truth.. so i guess not everybody can reach great heights.. i really dunno.. cos sometimes there is this feeling in your heart or mind that, you werent meant for these thing.. good things in life come to those who well.. have the luck and is choosen.. sure everybody wish to be some where in 10 years but getting there in 10 years or not is it possible.. really.. sure u hear stories about those who can.... but why dont you hear stories about those who fail.. they too tried to but they cant.. so does it mean that if u or not suppose to then you wont have it or wat.. oh yes... i am sure we all hear the normal bullshit about work hard.. blah blah blah this and that.. but come on.. dont kid us around.. not always working hard helps.. really.. i dont think it is like the olden days.. the harder u work the better it is... i think the harder u polish the faster u go up.. hahaha.. seriously.. and never step on your boss's tail!! anyways.. as i was saying so will we all be some where in 10 years or just fade among the rest.. i really dunno... i am sure i will fade among the rest.. haha.. but the rate things are going.. but then come to think of it.. not everybody wants a rich life.. not everybody wants to be some one, some people want the peaceful life, they want things to be just enough and a bit more... i guess different people have different ideas of how they want things to be but for sure they wan improvement in life.. who doesnt.. the question now is that how many can have those improvement in life and not to worry about many thing later in life.. that is what is meant of great things in life.. peace of mind.. just pass each day not worrying about tomorrow... how nice would that be.. for me i really dun have much request.. but sigh...

the march is here

well well.. look at how things are nowadays.. i think it wun get any better soon.. for now at least.. but hopefully by then end of this year it will get better.. i dunno.. sigh.. things for me seems to be bad.. i think i keep hoping for something which is just depends on luck.. but then if not.. how?? i cant jump up straight away.. or is there a way to just up way up there.. sigh.. i dunno.. i guess this doesnt make any sense just wanna crap out anyway.. ciao

tick tok tick ding ding ding! happy new year!

haha... just wanna come up with something weird.. nah it didnt work.. so anyways it is a new year suppose to be a new beginning and wer resolutions comes in but then the part of the new beginning doesnt actually work.. cos from the way I see it things are still the way it is.. just that is a just a new year wer u hope things wud get better and doesnt fuck up like the last year.. if you are still in debt then u are still in debt.. if you still a mindless empolyee then you still are.. but only you hope it get better.. wer meaning that u want to see improvement in life, well of cos.. who doesnt.. my point being that is it wer you have a different mind set for things this year.. look back at what had gone wrong, dont do it again.. change for the better, look at things differently.. look ahead.. that is what i think anyways.. if you dont agree then I guess too bad.. there is never wrong but how you look at it.. hahah.. and yeah.. resolutions are good too.. i think but for me, it never happens so hmm... i wanna try to make it happen this year i hope.. haha.. yup.. that is all for not.. cant think so much for now... so HAPPY NEW YEAR!

tick tok

tick tick.. as u hear the time go by.. then u begin to think what have i done for today.. or maybe yesterday.. how i spend my day? did i do something productive.. is how people say it nowadays.. well i cant remember anything good or worth while.. then u begin to see hmm.. what is it that i have done the whole week.. nothing u say to yourself.. a whole wasted week... what a waste good precious time.. then it continues.. and now u think to yourself... i am already so big but yet u still feel the same as you came out.. or maybe u did learn a thing or two about the real world... but yet u are still stuck were u were.. wanting to move on yet u cant.. wanting to go further but u dont know were to even begin.. it sounds so movie like.. so drama like but we cant deny so how so way it is a drama going on in our life.. some for the better some for the worst.. i know nothing of these does make sense.. it does to some.. and that is all it matters.. we know once u fall quickly pick yurself up and move on.. so i guess i know what need to be done.. i just hope it will be done.. NEW YEAR is around the corner so i think we shud always look ahead.. enough of that now...

luck

do you ever feel like sometimes u are down on yur luck? i dunno why but i just feel this way or maybe cos things are not going as the way yur thought it suppose to be.. or maybe there is always up and down.. but currently i feel quite down.. well this year really.. anyways the economy is not too good anyways.. but come to think of it.. of cos somebody has to be doing well.. i dunno who is but if everbody is effected then whose benefits in this.. seriously.. i dont quite understand this senario.. is because the out flowing of money is more than in the in flowing of money.. hmm... weird.. some economy stuff i just wont or dont understand.. hehe.. anyways is there is like a turning point in work were you feel like you just dont wanna stay is this company and feel like there is something else u wanna try.. i do wonder how can somebody stay with the job for so long.. yes.. i do believe that the people you work with cause this.. if they all the same wave length then it would be great.. if not.. i dont know what to think.. haha.. anyways.. just feel like talking it out.. sigh.. not i not complaining about my job.. just that you do feel that you can do better.. you know.. well i think you do..

a week to go?

yes i know merdeka has pass by but then i dont feel it maybe cos i was working on that day.. sigh.. how bad is that and i hear something big is going to happen soon i heard it would be around a weeks time.. and i wonder what would it be... hmmm.. we shall wait and see what is that.. something nice hopefully in nice i mean good for all of us.. *fingers crossed* anyways the point i am here again.. well it is weird i am write a bit more than usual maybe cos hmm.. i just dunno about somethings anymore.. well the reason i am writing this is that do you notice that there is many and i mean many nice nice fancy cars out there and during anytime of the day it is like still pack with cars everywhere.. seriously dont these people have to work.. and bloody hell how come there is so many rich rich fella and they dont seem to be bother about money it is like everything is going they way.. i seriously wonder how come.. dunno i do here lots and lots of stories but then i also notice there is so many others out there working their ass off but still peanuts.. then i have those normal raise your eyebrow chat with my fren also he also say so.. we do wonder how come.. it is a secret way or must u come a well do family to be able to do so.. sigh.. dammit is there a secret i sud know about..

a new mark

i wonder all the fuss about some local university being able to accept non malay students.. but i dont think the problem is there at hand.. i come from a local university myself.. and i must say that the local university are losing out to other university as in privates unis or overseas unis.. it is like if you are from the local university you are consider 2nd class but if you come from overseas or private.. wow.. you are much more better.. that is how the outside companies look at it.. i wonder do they realiase that.. i think sumthing there sud be done.. i mean wow just going to UK for 3 months and coming back you are called a overseas grad.. come on.. be fair man.. that is sumthing which i really hate.. and of cos who wont want to go overseas to study.. but please come back to reality we cant afford it.. that is the bottom line.. so local uni here we come.. and what happens.. we are consider second option.. sigh.. so sudnt there be research or whatever crap they do be done to see why is this happening.. we have so many local unis.. and look at the rate of unemployment.. i mean.. something need to be done rite.. sigh.. sumtimes i just dont get it.. on a brighter note.. somebody won the election.. there may be hope once more.. i hope.. well i can say is that everybody hopes for the same thing too... i was suppose to write about something else but i seem to have forgotten about it.. so well.. that it..