half the year

sometimes it is weird how time pass by so fast but yet when you want it to pass by faster at time it doesnt.. time and tide waits for no man... money cant buy time.. all these is we hear when we waste time or just let if slip by us.. but most important is that you are were you are now but yet u feel nothing much has been done or maybe you just feel like nothing much has change, it all still the same to you.. did u expect to here 5 years ago.. or the question most people do as in interview is that were do you see yourself in 5 years time.. fucking hell of cos better than now.. but what is better to you? how is it an improvement for you? is money the factor or is position the factor? or the amount of awards u receive? or the number of time you time appears in the papers ? how can we trully said i have achieved something in life.. how do you value these things? i dont know either.. just that when you see people around you far ahead you do wonder these things.. you wud think where do we go from here? hmm.. i dun think things are making sense.. hehe... its ok.. just hope you dont have this empty, bored, frus and confused feeling.. hehe.. anyways.. i am lazy to go on