sat and sun

when saturdays are meant to be lively while sundays are meant from resting at home but it seems that both days are pretty much so boring.. there is like a million stuff you feel like doing but then end up you are either too lazy or it doesnt matter anymore when suddenly eh... it is monday already.. hey... who stole my two days away.. when things u feel like doing involves money then you would be think.. hmm die man.. after this how.. my pay only left so little.. sigh... it is suppose to be the two relaxing days but ending up turning into such stress days.. well it is for some people and i guess not for other people.. since i am free enough might as well write some crap here.. i just feel weird and why does so many people think engineering will earn u big bucks.. some back to reality would you... unless you are in the oil and gas industry then OF COS! i bet everybody now knows the prices of oil nowadays.. then how do u suppose an engineer is earning big bucks.. we are just the kuli's that work for people wearing nice nice suits sitting in the office talking cock while we do all the dirty work and end up they get more money and they can say engineer earn a lot.. KISS MY ASS! BESI MI CULO! check it out if you dont know what it means.. i work in this field i understand what other engineer are thinking and feeling.. i just dont like the way people put it as wah engineer wor.. big money la.. sigh.. if only people know.. sigh... well we cant be too sad for ourselves as it was the path we choose so it will be the path we take and only can find ways to get better.. as for the rest... i think i shall see how things goes.. i am looking for the year 2010 after chinese new year.. it is something good i hope.. well enough of crap for one day.. and another thing saturdays and sunday nites now have meaning back.. EPL is starting tonite... yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... footie footie footie.... i am so happy...

what is real or not

as things and life's goes on do u ever wonder why things changes as we move through time and many things are not the same another more.. u see people change, things change and ideas change.. but what is real to us.. does it really benefit us.. hmm... deep truly deep.. as the end of this month would be a year older for my country.. we see lots of things happening but how does it has an impact on us.. it truly does.. now it is like those TVB drama series u see only TV where everything is so damn dramatic.. but what is real who is true.. is the truth really out there since the X-files is back in the movie.. i just hope that things get over with and the drama ends then we can look forward to a better future.. hmm... anyways PC fair was a drag.. it was like crazy there and as thou people were giving freebies there... seriously i dont understand it too.. well maybe i am just getting old and young people nowadays are catching up fast.. and another things i really dont understand sigh.. girls or ladies in a more polite manner.. are getting paid way way more than guys.. sigh.. and they say girls shouldnt have to spend anything when going out with a guy.. it doesnt seem rite.. haha.. well that is all for now.. since i am free nowadays..

evil or good

deep down inside you how will u know if u really evil or good.. how evil a person can be he or she still have the change to turn back to good but the other way around... so the questions is how do u really know if u really evil inside you or really good inside you... i am sure most people wants to be good.. the it the norm of life.. but then there are also people out the that needs evil... like the saying goes no matter how much good u do but if once u do something wrong people will always remember the bad about you.. so in the end of the day... people tend to ask the question whether it is worth it or not and does it really make your day.. let you sleep through the night knowing you have done nothing wrong and against your concern.. hmm... things to let you think about.. like the new phase i just heard last nite... 'u either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villian'.. hmmm quite an interesting phase.. well.. let you have something to think about for the time been...


'Sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.' - the dark knight 2008

just things tat flashes thru yur mind..

i guess by now most people already know abt the increase in the petrol price.. if u dun then i dunno where u were hiding for these few days.. well then i just started to think.. my thoughts la.. i may be wrong but just something went through my mind.. if they say that the world price of petrol increase so it means that if a country that exports petrol, the price of their petrol will increase rite?? i am right or wrong... i hope i am.. and if that is so.. meaning that we gain more money.. true i hope.. well we as in the country.. hmm... so doesnt this mean that in a way that our subsidy has not change.. hmmm.. just something i was pondering about.. i maybe right or wrong.. i am not sure about it too.. just a food for though.. and the next thing i was thinking about well about too.. if lets say a company.. the high level people that is.. how u do say this.. have come gain from outside sources then people in the company wun mind if he takes the gain if that is he can show to the company people that they company is going way ahead and improving.. what is a bit of gain when u can show how much u have done to the company.. and yes i know that taking the gain is against the law.. but if he just takes the gain without any improvement then that is a different sorry rite? well just something that has been in my mind.. haha.. just some crappy thoughts.. well nothing is right or wrong but it is how u can put it in a way that makes people think that it is correct.. hmm... true? or not.. i guess it is something i wun nvr know.. well have fun people.. i guess some people just like to think a lot.. some dont..

i am damn fucking pissed!!!

if u call that a penalty then what was last weeks.. come on ref.. u prick.. u know that was nothing much.. how can you.. shame on you.. it is always against arsenal.. then i wonder why arsenal dont get so many penalty this season if u call that a penalty.. so soft.. even the commentator says so... it is really bullshit... why always side liverpool.. fucking refs.. how can u spoil peoples dreams like that.. when we were young.. but no longer naive..

teach a man how to fish?

well do u often hear the saying if u feed a man a fish he eats for a day but if teaches him how to fish he eats forever.. of cos this is very true but then we need to remember u teach him how to fish but do we provide him with the equipment to fish may be it a fishing rod or a fishing net.. he may know to fish but does it mean he is able to fish with equipments or even he has the ability to do so.. i bet not everybody can catch a fish at the first few times or even it may require certain skills.. what i am trying to say is that yes he can eat everyday when he knows how to fish but does he have the things he need to fish and can he maintain to catch a fish everyday... now that comes another problem rite? like in life it is true it is so much we can teach a person but is the matter on how he can handle things and continue to learn and adapt to new things and new patterns.. and there is another thing important that is not everybody is capable to do such things.. like the saying if u dont have such a big head why wear such a big hat.. it goes to living.. we know many things on how is should be done but then we know we cant make it that way or that big so we just have to live as it is simple and day to day.. i just wonder am i getting through to you.. it is just something i came across with.. and well it is my opinion that is.. cos i know there is lots of thing we may know how and taught how but then are we able to do it that come the question in play.. well that is all.. just things running through my mind..

all hope is not lost yet...

as i was saying all hope is not lost yet... there is still hope.. well.. i just hope they can do.. anyways back to the normal life of the boring and indeed boredom of the working life.. my fren ask me something which i find quite interesting.. what is the demands of engineer because high because as nowadays we see that most degree holders of engineering i am talking about would prefer to sit in the office and wear nice shirts and pants and shoes rather than getting their hand dirty, seriously i also hope for so but i know i am not that kind of person who likes to sit down only.. seems to boring to the well.. what if the demand of them is high and the market will know be able to cope with the demand of them so would their salary increase since the demand is high and the more people comes out form university dun want to be in the who do we call it 'hands on' person so would it make our salary to increase.. well what he says does actually makes sense.. but then how long would it only happen this way.. and what it the manufacturing industry doesnt continue to grow in Malaysia.. then what would actually happen.. it is a nice to point to think about but then does it affect me or not.. seriously i dont quite know.. but then it would be nice to have a nice nice increase in salary, well who doesnt want that.. for sure everybody working out there is hoping for that to happen.. sigh... things are so flat as in what doesnt some need to do to get more than a honest living.. hahaha.. honest living.. sounds nice.. but dont you see that there is so so so many rich people out there and u sometimes do wonder how do they get where they are.. sigh.. some questions you dont know.. well you do know but how do you do it?!?!?! that is the main question there... as for now.. back to the boring life...

when dreams and hope run high!

it was a sad monday morning.. cause the team i support lost.. sigh.. there goes the dreams and hope of the club.. well it is okie because we can complain much.. it is a football game there will be winners and losers.. it is how it is support to be.. but let not be sad as we still have a big cup to focus on.. hehe.. i really hope we can win this cup.. for a least once.. please win it... pretty pretty please.. hahaha.. it isnt so much of the losing i was pissed of tis morning but this somebody who doesnt know how to shut the fcuk up.. sometimes i know why fight happens.. when people already lose.. we accept the lost.. we are not sore loser.. we know we lose we admit it.. just go walk home and let it be.. i know u r happy u won.. yes everybody knows it.. but u dun havent to brag all the way from the sit to the car park.. do u know how long the walk was.. it is not about being a sore loser but just time to sink in the lost.. and there a moron talking cock the whole time.. if anybody with less patient will just ask him to shut up but no no... u have to keep going.. these are times when people dunno how to shut the fuck up! seriously not me only.. even most people i think is just waiting for somebody to make a move and then chaos.. i would care even if the had more than 10 frens with him.. it is just the satisfactory of whacking the fuck out of him.. sigh.. but i didnt.. i am not born like that.. but i do hope somebody teaches him a lesson.. to know when to talk and when to keep quiet.. now i know why some people can really get on your nerve seriously sigh.. i some how regret i didnt make a move.. hahaha.. seriously.. fuckers.. but well it is part of the game.. as they say on tv and astro.. anyways let not let the moron spoil the nite.. let it be.. we may have won the game but the battle may not be lost yet.. long live arsenal!!

somethings u never know...

some thing u really didnt know but then everybody prefer to be ignorant.. cos say many would say ignorant is bliss.. but being ignorant is it really bliss or we prefer being that way cos it is better to not know than to know to much.. but how much is too much.. is knowing the truth being called knowing too much or rather we are just happy the way we.. i really dont know.. well it is just that some times it really enlightens u to things that u thought were different... it really is.. if until now u still dont get what i am trying to say it doesnt matter.. cos i am just surprised well not really surprised but it is nice to know... moving on to a brighter note.. i really dun get how some people being manager and all dont understand simply things that are explain to them but still wont n dont want to accept that it.. sigh.. some people are really hard to please.. well.. it is part of the job u need to then just do what choice do we have.. sigh.. managers...

new hope!,

it is the new year! a time for a new beginning, new hope, new believes, new target, new resolution, new all.... but is it really new or is it just another day goes by through the year as we age and things are still very much the same.. well what is life without hope and believes... looking forward for a better year as always... fairy tales and dreams do come true but not for everybody... yess! life is a bitch too.. learn to except it...

stepping on..

hmm.. do u realise something as we go along with our everyday life.. we get to know more, we experience more, we learn more, we see more and many more.. it is how you see things as they are and how do u take as it goes.. it may be hard but heck we have to.. what choice do we have anyways.. not to say we were born rich and spoil so go along as it goes try to make the best of it when it comes.. complaining wunt get u nowhere, angry wunt get u heard.. it is just sometimes the way things are.. and you of cos must try every way to make it work for u.. seriously sometimes you see why are some people so well off and doing so well and what has they got that u dont have.. i seriously dont know.. but i guess they had the change and the will to prove and try to make things right from them.. if you do by all means.. hahah.. a bit on the thinking side today.. nothing much just happy that i am finally able to move on and get another better offer... yippie horray.. but there are things that is still wonder of cos people wonder if not.. why do people always ask where do you see yourself few years down the road.. how the heck should i know.. if only i knew then wunt things be very different now.. i mean we do plans things but whether it work out or not.. who knows.. of cos people say it is up to u whether you want to make it happen or not.. but if it doesnt?!??!! then how.. shit happens, mess happens.. nothing is for certain.. who wunt want the best i mean everybody wants the best.. but not everybody gets the best.. u know what i mean.. yeah.. life goes on.. take it as it comes..

older yet still the same..

i am older yet it still feels the same... nothing has change or nothing feels different.. it has been a boring few months... go to work wait for time to pass then wait till 6 for work to finish and go back home and then everyday is the same.. from monday we wait till friday or maybe saturday for the weekend yet it passes by so damn fast... sigh.. do u notice that your frens always get better than u and u still stuck at where u are.. it is just weird i tell u.. i does tell u something that u better do something with your life before u are far far away behind.. hehe.. or mabbe u it says u are a bit useless.. haha... well mabbe my time hasnt come or mabbe nobody believes in this crap.. i truly dunno what to believe.. but always hoping for the best to come and more to come..
anyways enough about this crap.. i feel like everything is passing by so fast and u dun really know what is going on sometimes.. i feel like there is so much to do yet like there is nothing to do.. it just feels funny i tell u.. or mabbe i am just a weird person... hehe.. oh ya.. birthdays are like any other days... it pass by just like that and u end up doing nothing at all.. sigh... well i dun really mind but i some people do feel it is important, well i guess so as it is the day were u are getting older and should be more mature and to see things more clearly.. well it is suppose to be that day.. so by that i end it for now..

at some point

i think at some point of something like that.. u realize that things are not as simple as it seems and that so many things are just liars behind liars.. and you are wondering what am i crapping about.. nothing much really just something happen around my work place and those rumours that starts to surface but you wouldnt know what is real and what is not.. it seems to me that being up there isnt as easy as it seems... and do wish to be up there.. but just how.. hmm.. nevermind.. i also dun understand so why bother.. sigh.. it is things you get to know and things u start to think why we small potatoes are around for.. maybe it is for them to play around with or maybe they need us in order to keep it going.. and other things u heard from other frens and people around seems to keep pulling yourself down.. sigh.. i dont think any of you will understand what am i trying to say.. well i dun really also cos maybe i am quite sleepy and just feel like writing some crap out here.. lets just say i have gotten to know things which are happening quite true cos maybe it is not avoidable or not want to be avoid.. hehe.. of cos why the heck show avoid.. benefits are good and u will know that you can never be to careful as anybody near u will stab you in the back.. haha.. few lesson u learn in the process of working and growing up..
the rest seems alrite for now i think so.. nothing much i can complain as i know if i dont move on.. i cant keep myself ahead.. so.. fingers crossed and hoping for a better outcome...

may i more on..

nothin much have been happening lately but sumthin i was sure happy about is that Milan kick Man Utd out of Champions league!! YES! at last the man utd fans can be so arrogant.. they were out class by Milan.. totally shut down.. no chance at all... wow.. milan is really really that good.. and of cos I dun mind Liverpool goin to the final rather than Chelsea.. but I do hope Liverpool lose.. hehe.. well I know it sounds bad but Milan was really great yesterday I dun think Man utd can complain.. look at how they play man.. nice tackle nice passing.. but yes they are really old.. haha.. like the chinese saying older the ginger, the spicer the ginger.. haha.. anyways there it is all about footie..
hmm... there was this funny incident that happen.. i was out with my chick.. then while we were walking when I saw this gal who was once on the gal I admire.. haha it is weird that my chick knows her.. then they just chatted a while and my chick intro her to me.. how weird and funny is that.. i seriously find it funny.. well rite now I am thinking about my future.. seriously i really think it is about time for me to look ahead rather than just bumming around and let the days go by while doing nothing at all.. but then wen and how do i start.. Now that is the question... so i guess i am stuck here again.. sigh..

thinks u ponder about..

nothing much... just some comments about upper management that i heard which quite dun make sense to me or mabbe it is not gettin thru to me.. i really dunno i guess it is suppose to hint something to me because it was told me to.. hmm.. i guess there is more to learn then wat meets the eye.. but then i guess sometimes u really feel like you know a lot it is like the feelin you get yourself asking why the fuck cant he think like tat.. haha.. mabbe just sometimes or rarely.. but then i still have a long long way to go.. so i guess i should know more about things then just those i things i work on.. i wonder if you do really get what i mean... nothin much.. just things i keep pondering about often.. seriously i dunno why also.. i just feel do down and hardly anymore heart left in the my work anyways... i just feel like i have to go to work cos i need to not because i really have the heart.. dun feelin or whatsoever.. so unmotivated .. i wanna start somethin new.. i new challenges in life... in work.. i wanna know more.. i wan more.. i learn so much to be stuck just like that.. i am still young.. there so much more out there for me to know and see.. i want than just this.. i really want.. but the question now.. IS CAN I?? sigh...

watever will be will be

i dunno or really just give up sumtimes.. it is that hard or it is juz me.. sigh.. my luck havent been good since i came here.. or it is this place.. i really dunno... but it feel nice n homely.. so what can it be.. how now brown cow.. how can things be so bad yet so nice yet i fuckin dunno.. haha... truthly i wanna be happy or watsoever but just that i dunno how things are and it doesnt seem good i guess.. i need to get goin to be sumwer or sumone or .. or wat esle.. fucks... sigh... that is why... i just really dunno.. i really dunno.. n guess.. just let it be then....................

march on...

hello it is me again.. yes i know it has been quite sometime from my laz post.. hehe.. u know me.. being lazy n all.. anyways juz nothin much to say today.. juz quite bored with things... lucky i have my series to help waste my time if not.. i also wunt know how.. juz yesterday only one of my gf's fren got serious drunk and wasted which reminds me of my older days... those days when everythin was still young n naive.. u cud say i will be drunk most of the time wen i am out drinkin wif my frens.. for one it is hell a lot cheaper drinking there so i think that is the reason why... and because u know my frens.. all are drunkard fucks.. hahaa.. nah not complaining but it is a good thing... juz the good old days.. how nice it was.. better than were i am now..
work hasnt been great but still what choice is there.. can some juz quit when not having another better or same offer.. well i am juz scared not be jobless and moneyless.. so i guess there is nothing much to say... but juz to tell u something.. i realise that no matter how well or watever u try to do.. if u dun know how to suck up to yur boss.. it doesnt matter nothing does.. it is how well u sucked up and fuckin polish his shoes.. that is how u are goin up.. dont u ever forget that... somehow i thought things would be different but then i was wrong.. everythin sounds peachy when they want u to work for them.. then only u know u have enter hell! hahah... i guess some of us know that by now.. so lets talk about some more exciting...
wait.. is there anythin more exciting to life? for mine at least.. well today will be last day of chinese new year.. hehe.. means gambling have to stop from today.. of at least it suppose to.. it has been quite a slow one this year.. really it feels like nothin at all just only i had those nice nice holie.. nice food.. yummy.. new year is alwiz about food and ang pau.. thank god i am not married if not there goes those ang pau.. hehe... well.. i guess there is nothing much for me to tell about now.. till i come back...

chritsmas times...

it seems to be more and more boring as years pass by and the way u celebrate things has become so dull and is not longer exciting or maybe it is rather that some people are getting old well maybe still young in heart.. haha.. i wouldnt know so much i guess.. but then it seems so dully and plain this year around.. maybe i guess i was never that happening at all.. well maybe.. but then there comes new year where a new beginning will begin and things may change if u wan it to and it may not depending i guess.. would i want some changes.. i guess so.. changes are good.. rite?? i hope so.. dont u alwiz hear that people will change wen life goes on and it may be for the better or for the worst.. i really dont know.. if u do get better, how is it consider better? better pay? better job? better gf? better house? better attitude? or wat? u tell me? i really dont know.. better towards people? sigh.. things in life is so complicated rite.. i guess so.. nah... juz tryin to crap some rubbish out.. there is lots of things i wonder i guess.. but i think some things can be explain or better let it.. then we wake up the next day and juz let it be and on wif life.. there goes another day.. may a better tomorrow come.. hehe...

the time of the new beginning... i mean new year!

yes yes yes.. i mean the new year is coming around the corner and of cos christmas!! hehe.. hope i will get a present.. not some juz A present.. means i am not greedy u see.. and yes yes i know.. i havent touch this shit for a damn long time.. haha.. months.. well not yet a year so it is a good sign.. actually juz suddenly felt like writing sumthin so juz did.. not to say anybody esle wud read this.. rite.. of cos rite..
actually juz wonderin how long cud sumbody say in the same company doin the same job and the same old shit everyday! isnt it boring! isnt it time for a change! wudnt u dun have the mood or motivation another for improvement? i serious dun know.. i havent work for 2 years also still find the so dead lifeless and no point doin so.. juz that i have too cos i dun i dun get paid hence.. no money to use.. so i guess basicly ppl workin and get stuck in the job cos they dun have any choice!! but then i think ppl wud wan to leave also rite.. i AM FOR SURE goin to leave.. juz that i wonder why also still no damn fuckin interview.. sigh.. i am that bad or juz the market sux or is there any other reason.. i really hope there is.. sigh... still hopefull i guess cos i dun have a choice either rite.. sigh... y wasnt i born in the silver spoon.. it would be better then.. haha.. less worries..
i guess everythin else is still find for me.. although i need to get sum saving goin before i fuckin spend everythin i earn! or mabbe cos the money juz aint enuff.. hahaha.. excuses excuses... i really dont know but it is gettin quite late so i better get sum sleep if not.. u know there rest.. till i write again..

new new new...

sigh... i am suppose to be sleepin rite now but i juz cant or dunno wat the fuck is wrong anyways.. aint life a bitch.. i can be consider workin for 1 year adi.. but yet.. i dunno it is juz like not tat long n not tat short... sum how i have lost the mood for workin or even so the spirit of workin for tat company.. i guess it started few months back.. i juz dunno.. aint life a bitch! isnt tat true.. and i have been throught lots of things even thought most of it isnt mine.. like for instant episode 1.. hahaha.. now episode 2 well if u r thinkin wat the hell is episode 1 or 2 well i know wat it is tat is enuff for me.. and now even better sumwan get whack. and i dun mean whack by the term as in kill but really whack as in hit! yeah... fuckin long story aslo and it aint mine to tell so y bother.. juz bored wif things goin around me.. it is like nothin much nice or good is happening juz bad and sad news oni.. kind of fuck aint it.. yeah.. am i still findin for a new job.. yeah! of cos i fuckin hate the job i am in now although casual dressin to workin is nice but still aint fuckin gettin paid enuff! yeah i know money is important okay or not y do u think we are all workin for anyway? sigh.. fuckin hell dunno.. like so much on my mine but i juz dunno.. and dunno sumhow i got a chick yeah.. can be consider a chick although none of my frens know abt it.. but still i think she is my chick.. sigh.. cant tell ppl also for now.. wow.. fuckin great aint it.. see see.. ther is so much i feel like doin but ther is so lil i can do.. serious i dunno adi.. juz let the days so pass wait for weekend.. enjoy a bit n then work.. for fucks.. sigh.. is ther sumthin more i sud do or need to know.. confused aint i.. nah i dun think so anyways.. juz occupied oni my mind wif things i guess.. i hope so.. well at least i aint in depression or watever deep shit ther is to be.. rite?!?! but really sumtime u think gal really r evil! seriously a lot of shit happen cos of gals.. not to say i am sexist or wat but juz gal can cos the world to go war n ppl dun even know y they r fightin for also.. well not to say gals r bad juz tat powerfull in sum sense.. hmm wondering wat am i gettin at? nah it is okie.. as long as i know wat i am gettin it i think it is alrite.. hehe.. and i am not sayin gals r bad okie.. cos i have a chick.. haha i cant rite.. juz tat.. well i will keep quiet for now.. sigh.. ther goes today.. n tomorrow is here already.. yeah am i know i aint been writin for long but then i juz write today for fucks oni... dun really need to pay attention actually.. juz tryin to get things out.. so sorry if i offended anywan who reads tis.......