well as u can c tat i am still jobless.. anyway i am juz lazy to write anythin here.. cos i think nobody wud be bothered to read it.. well i think nobody knows abt it.. er.. okie then.. except for the few ppl i told abt it.. haha.. anyway i am still JOBLESS! n it sux!! i need the marnee man.. yeah.. who doesnt need the marnee rite.. sigh.. wat to do.. *crossing my finger* better lucky next month huh.. yeah.. new year means new luck rite.. i guess so.. hey have to say sumthin to make u feel better rite.. :P anyway wat esle is goin on.. hmm.. nothin good i guess.. sigh.. life seems so sucky for me.. well i know my name is sucky but tat doesnt mean it has to be sucky for me rite.. y cant it be good huh.. hmm.. muz be sumthin to do wif the name thingy.. dunno also.. sigh.. i seems to be sighin quit a lot rite.. yeah.. i guess i juz cant stop sighing... sigh!! ther i go again.. hehe.. hmm.. well if anyway notice my nick in msn these few days or week or 2.. it seems quite weird like i am in sum kind of deep shit.. n sound sad.. well i guess i was.. er.. i mean still am.. hehe.. cannot tell y.. bleh! secret! hehe.. juz know tis.. in the end it doesnt really matter at all.. hey tat is still in my nick in msn.. hmm.. takin from linkin park song.. in the end.. the song really means a lot wen u listen to it.. serious shit man.. it is like u can relate to the song... n u know wat the fella is sing abt.. haha.. kind of stupid huh.. but it really feels like it u know.. sigh.. hmm.. sum ppl say tat music heals the soul.. not wen u r er.. how to put it in a nice way... out of love i think.. haha.. okie.. well dun like to love songs wen u r out of love.. cos it will make u even more sad.. serious shit man... haha.. tot the songs r suppose to cheer u up.. mabbe it was the wrong kind of songs to listen to at tat time.. haha.. but serious DUN!! well i guess it juz makes u feel better i think.. haha dunno also le.. hey.. not abt me okie tis wan... :P oh ya.. ther was another lesson i learn.. well i mean from sumbody.. is tat ther is a beauty in luvin sumwan even thought u r out of love tat is anyhow u also wan the other party to be happy! haha.. wonder tis now.. y sud u wan him or her to be happy wen they make u so damn sad! no fair rite.. haha.. stupid ppl do stupid things.. tat is wat i think.. but then i deep down inside u also u feel happy for the other party wen they happy.. er.. guess u dunno wat i mean... haha.. cos i also really dunno wat am i talkin abt.. rubbish i think.. but then tis i my website so i can say anythin i wan to.. n nobody out ther is goin to stop me.. try if u may but u cant! hmm.. wat is tat sayin... dunno really remember it properly but then i think i goes sumthin like tis... words will not hurt me but sticks n stone will.. er.. i dun think this sayin is true really cos sum words will do hurt ppl.. n sum words really do leave a mark in ppl's heart but then wat do we know.. cos we r not the wan hurtin inside rite.. haha.. i think i am full of rubbish man today.. mabbe cos i think i am a bit crazy.. haha.. yeah i guess so.. hmm.. better dun stay up so late anymore.. hahah fat chance! hehe... it is my life wat.. :P sigh.. eh.. i tot i was talkin abt gettin a job.. haha.. how come it suddenly came to tis topic wan.. n it seems like it is goin round n round also.. haha.. i think i better get to sleep! then mabbe tomorrow it will make sense or mabbe i will write sumthin tat make sense.. haha.. if i do write tat is.. u know.. lazy ppl like me.. haha.. yeah.. cos it the end it doesnt really matter wat! haha.. really love tat phrase...
